im so bored...slacking at home ALONE is really really not a nice thing.waking up late and still have to go buy lunch for myself den realizing there's no nice show on tv,no msg or missed call on my phone...it's hard to pass time like this.sometimes i jus felt im really alone and dat noone tot of me.yeah i noe.im being too sensitive.but imagine for one WHOLE day u din receive a single msg?i would hope to believe dat the starhub system is down or something but that's not possible.abit sad huh?or should i say pathetic?

nowadays i seldom..nono..i NEVER mentioned abt someone in front of my frens anymore.even my closest fren.i dunno..maybe im escaping.i din wanna look him in the eyes when i saw him in school during the last 2 weeks.i din even wish to turn my head over to jus take a look even though i noe he's jus opposite.jus a simple smile and a glimpse and exchange a few lines abt the papers.dat's all.well..now dat both of us haven been talking to and seeing each other.perhaps it's time dat i should learn to adapt more to life without thinking abt __.this is wat i hope but i find myself still unable to do that.haiz.3 years of relationship..isit too long for me to let go?or isit jus dat i choose not to even after six long months,even after he had choose to let go and move on?i guessed all my frens tot i've gotten over it.but have i actually?every word dat came out of his mouth still lingers in my mind.and im starting to think dat they are lies.empty words.and why should he tell me all dat then?isit jus some casual remarks?im not sure.

it feels great being single when u havent been in a relationship before.but it's hard having to be single again after u are being dumped.how i wish i can go for some brainwashing.

暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
不能用恨你却不住结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑眼前的人
是不是同一个真实的你

the A levels is FINALLY over!!!well...it was quite fast actually.compared to Olevels which dragged for more than two weeks!torturous!anyway..the last paper for me was chem paper 1 which was last friday 18th Nov 05!i wanted to update my blog de but then connection super slow den abit laggy.so...i gave up!haha!it's not too late updating now ma rite?dun even noe if anyone reads my blog(im not including those that gave weird comments and those i dun have any idea where they come from).well well well...been slacking since friday...wahahaha!it's tiring to slack also u noe!BUT BUT BUT..it's not as tiring when i tot of those days i spent mugging until late into the night!LoLx!now i feel so carefree and relax!haven had these kind of feelings for a very long time...life is stressful ya?

went to pL's hse today!so exciting!why exciting?cos we planned a surprise for her!hahaha!we gave her a belated birthday surprise!met up with jen and sam early in the morning at toapayoh to touch up on the present we bought for pL.me and jen bought a frame at precious thots which we can put pL's name de.quite special!den we decorate the border of the frame with our names this morn at mac after our breakfast!hee!bought a choco cake at bengawan solo before we head off to her hse.it was raining almost the whole day today lor!den the wind quite strong!but clumsily,we managed to light up the candles at the staircase near pL's flat!carried an umbrella to shield off the wind somemore lor!wahaha!abit funny!tink she was surprised and touched la although it was belated!haha!cooked maggie mee at her hse.and u noe how we cook?we used the microwave!!!amazed ma?i din noe microwave can cook maggie mee lehz!oh!almost forgot!our dear aunty jen today spent more than...eh...10mins? trying to choose a packet of vege which is totally clean and free of dirt!sam and i got quite frustrated with her.hahaha!well,she insisted on adding vege in the maggie mee u see.

finished watching wangzibianqinwa at pL's hse today!!!was very nice!!!HAPPY ENDING!i love happy ending!haha!so sweet!and sam watched her shi kang jun!she almost lost control when she heard his ''hai mei fong''.Lolx!jen got to watch her david tao andylau and wanglihong!so...there goes another day...with our eyes glued to the tv and monitor screen for hours!haha!

mama and rui went my wai po hse tonight.i din go with them cos told my mum dat i wanna go out with my frens and shun bian look out for jobs.haha!well...dun tink i'll be seriously looking out for one right now.maybe after next week ba.i doubt my mum would go anywhere to shop too so go there also abit bored.but now im starting to wonder wat i should do tmr...hmm...i'll probably wake up by noon?haha!hope the weather tmr is just like today's!so cooling!ok..that's it for now!=D

does happiness seem more elusive in today's society?hmm...considering the amount of stress we are facing today...maybe it is really elusive...wat does happiness mean anyway?maybe everyone has got different perspectives of happiness.and how do we measure happiness?

konglon9.3rd Febber.aquarius.



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