Courage
Sunday, October 21, 2007 |6:00:00 PM
i dun have it now.
to bes fren: i thought maybe it would be better for him NOT to tell me he still likes me after he said that it's difficult and all huh? cos then, i wun be still hoping until now. jus break my heart once and for all instead of leaving me hanging there. and if i wanna confirm if he still feels the same way now, i'm afraid i'll suffer another heartbreaking moment. he sucks. haha. sometimes i'm quite envious of you. u've got someone who would be there for u ALL the time. someone who would share ur unhappiness and joy. someone maybe u would spent ur entire life with! (:
i'm quite looking forward to finding my someone. someday. maybe 10 years from now??!! haha. i hope not. although i'm a patient person. for now, i can only fantasize......
"... If I had to find another, I hope its you, not someone like you or someone who looks like you, but you"
found this quote while browsing one of my friend's bloggy. sweet. and i agreed with my fren. yes, it's terrible having to wait for something which u know, may never come.
Bueno-ing
Tuesday, October 16, 2007 |10:23:00 PM
CnH2n+2 sent 16/10/2007 11:51:
bueno again? haha actually everytime i buy bueno i'll think of you too.
when i signed in today, seeing this message puts a smile on my face. i tink it's pretty sweet. (:
bueno. something we used to share. nostalgic. i remember how he used to buy bueno (those 3 packets stick tgt de) and put them in his fridge. den sometimes when all of us went up his room after 12midnight for noodle talk, i would open his fridge and steal the buenos! wahaha! and it will all be gone after the noodle talk. of cos not ALL eaten up by me la. i'm kind de ok...btw, the "he" here is not the HE u all are thinking 'bout ya. haha.
i missed those days back in hall. really. sometimes i wondered if i'm still staying there now, if i've joined float or kewoc and continue staying there, would things have been different? but it's no use thinking about it now. one of my fren told me jus now, he said it would be better for me to forget the whole thing and move on. i tink he makes a point. but i still cant get dat heart ache off my chest whenever i see him, whenever i received a sms from him out of the blue. it always makes me think if he still cares? if he is feeling the same way as i am? i think it's really better sometimes for me to not see him and not hear from him. totally jus break away from him. it helps me to forget about his existance TEMPORARILY. at least i can be happy even if it's a short while. it's tiring always having to act like nothing has happened. it's also tiring staying upset all the time. but i jus cant make myself totally break away. sometimes i wanted to see him so badly. i wanted to sms him and ask how he's doing. but all these are jus one-sided. dat's wat i think. oh whatever...when will i ever have a smooth relationship...sigh.
Lust|Caution
Sunday, October 14, 2007 |9:54:00 PM
Watched 色戒 ytd with the 6C ppl - me sam pL shunlong zuhui and kangxiang. initially when i forwarded the msg to everyone,well almost, zuhui tot dat was some kind of a porn show. -__-''' and most of the guys dunno wat's dat movie. haha. well, i dun tink they enjoyed the movie la. i agreed dat many scenes have been snipped off. and wat was shown was mainly the "Caution" part. no wonder the guys were disappointed huh? hahaha! after the movie we went to Mac slack and talk cock for a while before heading home. time flies lor, the guys are ORD-ing at the end of this year. wow~ haha. am getting old le...this is baddie bad! hope kangxiang will organize another outing after our exams!
6 more weeks to freedom!
holidays please come quick.
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