stupidity?
Friday, November 25, 2005 |6:30:00 PM
im so bored...slacking at home ALONE is really really not a nice thing.waking up late and still have to go buy lunch for myself den realizing there's no nice show on tv,no msg or missed call on my phone...it's hard to pass time like this.sometimes i jus felt im really alone and dat noone tot of me.yeah i noe.im being too sensitive.but imagine for one WHOLE day u din receive a single msg?i would hope to believe dat the starhub system is down or something but that's not possible.abit sad huh?or should i say pathetic?
nowadays i seldom..nono..i NEVER mentioned abt someone in front of my frens anymore.even my closest fren.i dunno..maybe im escaping.i din wanna look him in the eyes when i saw him in school during the last 2 weeks.i din even wish to turn my head over to jus take a look even though i noe he's jus opposite.jus a simple smile and a glimpse and exchange a few lines abt the papers.dat's all.well..now dat both of us haven been talking to and seeing each other.perhaps it's time dat i should learn to adapt more to life without thinking abt __.this is wat i hope but i find myself still unable to do that.haiz.3 years of relationship..isit too long for me to let go?or isit jus dat i choose not to even after six long months,even after he had choose to let go and move on?i guessed all my frens tot i've gotten over it.but have i actually?every word dat came out of his mouth still lingers in my mind.and im starting to think dat they are lies.empty words.and why should he tell me all dat then?isit jus some casual remarks?im not sure.
it feels great being single when u havent been in a relationship before.but it's hard having to be single again after u are being dumped.how i wish i can go for some brainwashing.
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