accept it
Friday, June 30, 2006 |2:00:00 PM

chatted with jen ytd nite.

she's right.

yes i am following my heart and dat is the only good thing after everything which have happened lately.however,nothing good is going to come out of wat i've done and yar,i jus have to accept those bad things coming my way be it now or in the future.

i am glad i have told the truth.

一半的我 - 范玮琪

哎哟喂哎哟喂
为何心那么憔悴
哎哟喂哎哟喂
就让我远走高飞
一路走来有多美
都化作了片片层灰

一半的我跟时间作对
一半的我却觉得好累
看你为我努力点缀也是不完美
一半的爱比想像珍贵
一半的路却少了你陪
两个人太多事与愿违我不想理会

哎哟喂 ...

谁的泪爱的累　
让勇敢的人心碎
恨过谁无所谓　
远行的人不後悔
爱总是百转千回　
谁会陪我直到天灰

爱总是百转千回　
谁会陪我直到天灰

一半的我跟时间作对
一半的我却觉得好累
看你为我努力点缀也是不完美
一半的爱比想像珍贵
一半的路却少了你陪
两个人太多事与愿违我不想理会

哎哟喂　哎哟别让我心碎 ...




why lie?why not lie?
Thursday, June 29, 2006 |10:41:00 PM

isit wrong to tell the truth when u noe someone will be upset upon knowing it?*shrugs*

why didnt u tell?cos u tink it doesnt matter?dat's all?why did u lie?cos u tink it'll make me feel better?

it's my decision and i am following my heart.nobody is responsible for my decision except myself.

*sigh*




have i done the right thing
Monday, June 26, 2006 |1:51:00 PM

cried myself to sleep the past 2 nights...it's bad...

cried again when i went to check my mail and read his blog today...and thankfully noone's home...i've stayed offline ytd...afraid to face wat i've faced today...

no matter how many times i read it,each time jus makes my tears run...was wondering if i've done the right thing...




原来
Saturday, June 24, 2006 |9:50:00 PM

i'm sad...i feel so bad...so hurt once again...but this time...i've brought this all upon myself...i tink i deserve it so i dun wan any consolation...jus let me be...

i wan to cry my heart out...but i cant...

i dun wish for this to happen but it had...





i hate myself
|2:36:00 PM

jus read his blog...now feeling even worse...maybe i shouldnt even have met the other him in the first place...but why did i?why didnt i reject him?i guessed the answer is pretty obvious and i'm trying to hide from facing it.and i jus thought dat it's abit riduculous dat i'm still feeling tis way after so long and i actually tot i was ready.i hate myself for feeling tis way now.i dun have the courage to bring it up to the girls when i met them ytd.i guess i'm jus afraid of how they would tink of me as a person...sigh...i'm a cheat..perhaps dat's wat they'll probably tink.they dun have to say it out...even i myself tink so too...jus wake me up PLEASE!

i only told my bes fren and had a chat with her ytd.but i'm still confused.it's all up to me she said.i dun wan to make any decisions yet but.......sigh......i dunno.

i guessed my parents were right after all and i hate to believe it!however,the reasons they gave wasnt exactly true.i really dun wish to think about it anymore...it's draining away my energy...




confused
Friday, June 23, 2006 |10:35:00 PM

Feeling confused...
guilt-strickened...
wat am i tinking?how can it be so?
i dun want to believe...i dun wish to...
maybe i was but i was wrong...
maybe i can...but will i have a chance?

sigh...wat to do...




back with a new skin!
Tuesday, June 20, 2006 |2:48:00 PM

Yes, I'm back on Sunday but was too tired and lazy to blog the past 2 days. However…I managed to change my blog layout! In case for those who came here and tot they have type in the wrong address in the address bar, NO u haven type the wrong addy! U are still at konglong's blog! Jus dat it's different! Haha! Anyway, jus felt dat it has been a rather long weekend. I woke up this morning and thought I haven been going to work for a week. My whole body is calling me to go back to bed on this rainy morning.

So lethargic. I need my pillow and bed this instance.*yawnz*

I wished Yingru happy birthday jus now and guessed wat he replied? Haha! He told me he himself dun even remember dat today is his birthday wor! Haiyo~ poor guy. He must be very stressed and busy with training. Lolx!

The Malacca trip was a fruitful one I must say. Well, maybe jus for me! Heehee! There’s a street there which is sealed from 8pm to 12midnight every weekend for vendors to set up their stalls. It's kind of like pasar malam but the things they sell are different and of more varieties. I bought a bag, a bracelet with BIG pearls, a pair of earrings and cute stuffs for the girls! Actually wanted to buy more but mum refused to spare me more ringgits =(. Bought a lot of food at Tan Kim Hock also!!! Hahaha! And I managed to smuggle bubble gums back! Lolx! Was so worried the police would stop me and request to check my bag. But I passed through it! Phew~! Oops…shouldn't have mentioned it here.*whisper* Dangerous…sHHHhhh…

We stayed at my aunt's new house. The objective of this trip actually was to visit my aunt's new house. They jus moved in 3 days before we went there. The house is very BIG and is 2 storeys high. Kind of like the bungalows in Singapore. So shuang to stay there. They have a dog, xiaobai! She's very KE AI!!! When you carry her, place her on your lap and keep stroking her neck, she would become sleepy and close her eyes as if enjoying the massage! Lolx! So adorable!!! I wan to play with her! But, the time we spent there was way too short. Zue was complaining and bugging me with questions like why cant we stay longer, when's the next time. Haha! Well, I guessed the next time we are going back again will be next year le. Hopefully during Chinese New Year!

3 more weeks and I'll be ready to rot! Should be preparing myself for school. Mixed feelings – excitement, anticipation, worries, fear, sad. A lot of things to be done in July. The bank loan, medical examination, check if my hostel application is successful, matriculation, and more yet to be listed because I cant remember le. Heh…

And…I'm still figuring out how to add a wishlist on my blog without messing up the whole chunk of words at the right. I went to the library with zue ytd and I actually borrowed a book on how to create your own webpage. Can u believe it?? But still abit blur after reading. Haha! One good thing is the colour codes I get from the book in order to add colours to my blog! Lolx! Haven stepped into the library since after the 'A' lvls. As usual, saw many students mugging at the café. Can still picture myself there last year! Goodness! So scary! Telling myself not to worry cos there'll be more chances for me to mug in the lib(probably in the sch itself) in the coming 3-4 yrs. Urgh!>=(

Okie…dat's all for now…shall upload xiaobai's photo tonight to show everyone how cute she is! Wahaha!Bye~





Away
Thursday, June 15, 2006 |10:09:00 PM

away to malacca - 16 to 18 Jun




Please stop!
Saturday, June 10, 2006 |10:33:00 PM

Spare me those nagging and reasonings cos i've had enough already!You might not know but those words that you blurted out jus pierce through my once broken heart.You DO NOT know how hurt i was then so please DUN assume you know everything!I know what i'm doing now is RIGHT and i'm NOT that kind of girl you thought i would be!Please DO spare a thought for me before you said those hurting words!

sigh...this really sucks...why cant they be more open-minded??why why why??They arent then and i would say they will never be...they tink i feel good lying all this while??how can i be frank with them if their reactions jus make me feel disgusted and hurt EVERYTIME i tell them the truth?shitty shit...




jolly june
Monday, June 05, 2006 |9:29:00 PM

i got a new phone le!!!so happy!!!=)) Nokia 7360 warm amber.at first din noe dat colour is warm amber until i see the receipt.wahaha!wanted a flip phone actually but den my papa talked me out of it,saying flip phone got alot of prob de.even the salesperson said so den i got nothing to say le.haha.BUT am happy with my new phone!got camera!although not very clear la.VGA de ma.But i got my digicam at home.haha.if need to take nice nice de den use my digicam lo.

went to bugis with him ytd.well,jus walked aimlessly around at bugis junction and bugis street.din really buy anything except a pair of earring and a watch.he told me actually he jus wanted to see me so jus anyhow suggest a place to go.=S he can jolly well asked me to meet him at amk rite?haha!but it's sweet of him la.heh...it's the last day of his block leave ma.can see he very she bu de when he sent me home.well...i guess it's hard now cos we can only meet up during the weekend and how many weekends are there in a mth??the only comfort is hearing his voice at least twice a week through the phone.although our conversation sometimes only lasted 10 mins,i'm happy dat at least he takes out his only free time after a long and tiring day of tedious training to call me lo.so i must endure...and i'm really glad to have him around for the past 2mths!=))

okie...thanks to him i got to catch chu ''red-handed'' outside amk mrt!!!WAHAHA!!!i was initially waiting inside the mrt near the control station not knowing dat he was outside near the entrance.= didnt see him when i walked into the station as he was at the other side near the toilet.haha!until he called after i msged him dat i've reached.he told me he saw chu outside the mrt with a guy!!!and holding hands somemore!i was so super shocked when he told me!den we chiong outside to see if they are still there and THERE!haha!first thing dat comes to my mind.i dun have to call chu liao!Lolx!saw with my own eyes!hehehe!but still need to ask her to tell her story right from the beginning!(chu be prepared next time we meet up k?=P) she was gg to Plaza Singapura to meet her classmate to study so we took the same train together lo.she showed me her schedule and she's free this coming sun after 530pm and on the 18th,she'll be free whole day.SO,if we wanna meet her it's either this or that.if not the next time she's free will be july i guess.busy gal and even more busy now becos of ya noe?haha!

erm...wat else...?oh yeah!i saw HER on sat night at amk central AGAIN!how lucky can i get?sigh!i was gg to buy phone with my papa and bro tagging along.i was walking straight but my eyes were browsing those shops and i didnt realize she was coming in opp direction towards my papa who happened to be jus beside me!it's only when after she'd passed me den i saw lor!well,it's like she was half a metre away from me den i saw her la.i dunno but i tink she and olivia saw me from quite a distance le but when she passed me she was drinking her beverage.i guessed she jus pretended not to see me la.well done~but i also dunno how to react if our eyes really met lor.maybe jus a smile.but if everything is normal i would go tap her shoulder and say hello or even shout her name la even if she'd walked pass.haiz...sad.was telling boon next chinese new year we'll have lesser ppl to go bai nian le and also one hse less to go visit.sigh sigh sigh...






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